I keep thinking I should write a little bit about Preston’s birth and the following days, even if I don’t publish it right away, while it’s still fresh in my mind and the smaller details haven’t escaped into the memory-mushy weeks that follow a birth. But every time I sit down to write even the most simple notes, words that are free from feeeeelings or analysis even, it makes me tense up and my stomach starts to hurt and my chest gets that achey feeling of heartbreak and I feel panic and anxiety coming at me full throttle. So. I’m not going to write about that any time soon, I don’t think.
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We’re going to be discharged tomorrow morning and the wonderful nurses here are putting several things in motion to make that happen as early in the day as possible for us. His labs are clear, he’s healthy, he’s coming HOME.
I’m so glad this is almost over. I don’t want to think about it again for a really long time.
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To end on a good note, BABY PHOTOS.
Noella
January 29, 2013 6:33 pm
Preston is so adorable. I’m very excited for you two to finally come home, yippee! That baby boppy pillow looks super comfy. I need an adult size one for myself.
vanessa napolitano
January 29, 2013 6:35 pm
Understood. So happy for your family. Just think how great it will feel to all be under the same roof from now on!
Jesabes
January 29, 2013 6:43 pm
Tomorrow cannot come soon enough. I’m so happy your boy is going to be home!
HereWeGoAJen
January 29, 2013 9:17 pm
I am so happy that this is almost over and you will be able to get on with the rest of your lives as FIVE. (YAY!)
Jennifer
January 29, 2013 10:50 pm
Being in the hospital with Audrey last spring was… well, it was TERRIBLE. The worst part was when we really didn’t know what was going on at some points and it was super scary. And she was a bouncy, healthy (up until that point) toddler! I cannot imagine having questions floating and spending extra time in the hospital with a tiny newborn baby. It just shouldn’t happen that way! I’m so sorry you’ve had a rough start with Preston… but I’m so glad it’s almost over for you and you can all be home and move on. He is seriously adorable and needs to be home with his big sisters :) So much love to you all!!!
Erica
January 30, 2013 12:09 am
He is coming HOME.
Elsha
January 30, 2013 12:44 am
There are parts of Daniel’s birth story/NICU stay that I STILL can’t bring myself to write about and it’s been almost a year. Having a baby in the NICU is hard!
He is just adorable, and I’m so excited for you to get to bring him home!!
Jess
January 30, 2013 10:27 am
I cannot wait for him to come home with you. I can only imagine how scary and heartbreaking it has been for you!
Michelle
January 30, 2013 11:16 am
What a handsome little man. Hoping for you that he’s discharged as early as possible.
Pippi
January 30, 2013 11:22 am
My fingers are crossed that by the time I’m writing this you are on your way home with your baby! Soon the NICU will only be a memory.
K
January 30, 2013 1:17 pm
HOME!
meghan
February 2, 2013 2:42 pm
I’m so glad he’s home and the bad parts are over. Just keep thinking about that…he’s home and the bad stuff is over. (at least I really really really REALLY hope it is)
Katie
February 3, 2013 11:40 pm
Andrew is 15 weeks and I still cannot bring myself to write down his birth story. It is like everything kind of pales in comparison to the fact that he stopped breathing, you know? And I am the same way. . . I can’t really reflect too much on all of it without getting really anxious. While I feel occasional tugs of “I really should write that all down,” for the most part, it feels okay to just leave it.